Resurrection

Many years ago, post cancer treatment and trying to figure out the path forward into wholeness, I decided to blog my way through that period. It started as a healing journal about where I’d been, what I was learning and hopefully, as a guide to where I was going.

At that point in time, blogging was experiencing a surge in popularity. I found myself part of a community that was about life other than cancer.  While I wrote about cancer, about fear, about recovery, about gratitude and hope, I bonded with artists, writers, photographers and other creatives where expressing myself through creativity became a large part of the healing journey. In the process of my own writing, I was learning new skills not just in an artistic sense but in coping with the hardships and uncertainties of life.  That I developed a large readership surprised me, but it kept me going because I hoped my voice might be one that made a difference for someone else.

And the day came when I stopped blogging.  It wasn’t a conscious decision; it just evolved naturally.  It wasn’t just me – most of the people I became friendly with during that period also stopped.  It was as if there was a community outpouring of togetherness that served its time and the world moved on.

The need to write, to express my views, to share what I know (however little or however much that might be) has resurfaced.  It was dormant, perhaps resting to gain strength, but the urge to express myself the way I have always been able to do best has had a resurrection of sorts.  Blogging may not be having a resurrection but this is the best platform for me at this time in my life.  It feels good.  It feels right.

When I first received the breast cancer diagnosis I would often ask “why me?”.  During the treatment and what I was learning about myself, about life, about everything around me I had an epiphany.  I stopped asking “why me?” and started saying “why not me.” Flipping that thought from negative to positive I believe played a tremendous role in my healing.

To make this blogging resurrection complete, I’ve even gone back to the title of my original blog.  It was where I started all those years ago because it was what I was looking for.  Life isn’t only about what happens to you – it’s about how you choose to look at it.

I still believe that life holds everyday possibilities.